Another 4.5 hours,18/12/2010 will reach the end.
I was doing overtime work this whole afternoon.Sometimes doing works will really make me feel like more satisfied than staying at home during the weekends especially he is coming back...I know that I shouldn't had this kind of feeling because it's a sin to had this kind of feeling...but perhaps is my problem...I just wanna have your love towards us more than him! I did so much things just to make u happy and satisfies to had me but...u won't...u won't look at us.Although i did so much things all this years..i just couldn't get your love & care...WHY?! He just do nothing but he can own your heart...He did more troublesome than US...BUT WHY?!...
From child to teenager to an adult...i never expect more from u. I just want u to look at us more often...praise us when we did good deeds,share with us what u had did this all days..spend more time with us...having family days...listen to our advices & problems...You've told me that u never gonna have the 2nd person in your heart..but...i saw the photos...is that how u prove your words? IS THAT HOW YOU DID?!WHY?!...You blame us when there is a problems..but u never blame him...You just treat him better...You share with him...you care more about him...you spend more time with him..you talk more with him...
I know i am selfish..I know i am bad...i know i am doing sin to had this kind of feeling..but i am just a human...i made wrong things...i am not noble as God...I just hope that one day...i can hold your hand or you hold my hand...walking together...let our heart to become closer...I just hope that you can say..."It's ok...everything will be okay..."when i was down...you wipe my tears, look at me with a warm smile and say that:" YOU WILL ALWAYS THE BEST..."
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