Chinese New Year is coming...
I can listen to the chinese new year song recently when walk along the street.
Even my brother down load new year song from the net...few albums already...
Yet,i can't feel as happy as other people...
I feel that i'm just celebrate it without meanings...maybe there is no meaning at all...
After all without a complete family...
When there is a family reunion,there will always a chair there is nobody sitting on it.
Four years ago there was a person i care,love a lot sitting on it...and now...even the ash i can't saw it...
sometimes i feel that God is fooling me...why i lost my mom when the chinese new year is near four years ago?
sometimes,feel that i hate chinese new year...
I hope that everything ---" If...." will come true.
"If " is not the facts,there nothing that i can do about it.
After all I'm not The Mighty God.
Some people say, i should stay away,forgot the past and walk foward.
Yes,i'm doing it.I'm taking this action on my dream...
But forgeting the past is not an easy ation to take.
It requires a lot of time and spirit....
Aaaaaaahh~~~
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